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We looked forward to this day all month long we saved to make sure we had enough for the trip parking sunscreen and tickets and food. We arrive my white angel codenamed lancer always delivers when its road trip time he goes all the way. We roll into downtown austin and walk the empty streets littered with trash and drinks un finished food. The air was crisp and smelled of snap dragons. The coolest palce to be that morning. We waited in line and in line we always make the nicest most open minded friends. And even between sets during the concert we make friends. We gather for the love we share for the music. It has to be the most exhilerating thing to be first band up. BUt this band delivered and then some i fell for the melodic tunes hook line and sinker. And sometimes people are there to see a different band but you gotta respect the love they have because on days like today we are all equal. The tent was cramped and the accoustic were amazing considering the setup. THe best part was the free rockstar energy drinks. I loved the smell of many energy being spilled during the sets and the dance of the crowd. The best part was when my little brother turned and pushed the whole crowd back when he didnt want to participate in the "MOsh" pit. So overrated and its on its way out and the new revolution of the concert lies in the hands of the bands im sure they are great but sometimes disturbing and a nusence. The guitars hit and the crowd goes insane and packs itself tighter together to get closer to the band. We all want to be closer to the band. We all want to be rockstars and we all share the experience. Sometimes unity maybe be small but its there and we all enjoy it to know that when your jumping with the beat there is a hundred people to jump with you and we are all the alternative.

Stumbles

Hey i saw you across the room. You looked amazing. Did you notice me? i was there. It seems like you were in a daze what was on your mind. I would hope was me. I spoke and no words came out i tried again and again. I didnt know what to say. Why would you even want to here from me again? im just finding it odd. IM in the battle of confusion. YOu really try to track me down then you find me do you reall y ahve anyhting really to say. Tell me something make a difference let me know your ok. I wish to change the world, what about you. I want to make it better. Can we make it better for us. Have you made things better for yourself. I tried i really did now i can only get better. Now that i am getting better.

in literature

i Just recently finished a book that many have read and i just got around to reading and that is tha catcher in the rye. It was very entertaining i didnt mind reading it at all but i realized in reading it and myslelf in the book of course i wouldnt do anything like run around new york almost get a hooker or ask a girl that i want to run away with then later drunk call her. But at th e time the girl i got the book from was a dear frined of mine first but we were so much more the thing is i needed to grow up some more. I really do the main character in the book talks about growing up and just talking about how old guys just talk about the miles per gallons of thier cars. I dont want to end up like that either i do not want to end up in a routine but it seems that is where alot of people are headed. I was heading that way i had become completely obssesed with fighting consumerism and the value of a name on some girls purse. I fell victim to the power of that i wanted a new car but i realized now that there is nothign wrong with my car so im in a fight with myself i did some things i was completely oblivious too i didnt know i wanted to fix it but i dont know how to now. I would do anything to get her back but the only thing i can do is grow up and learn. Man she was so different in all the best ways her smile her walk. then i realized like the character in the book that i overreact sometimes and act out irrationally and that what ends up hurting me the most and in that i lose things along with my composure its no fun without her around it really isnt. so in the end this book rather taught me alot and maybe it is time to do things the grown up way stop caring and get it right.