in literature

i Just recently finished a book that many have read and i just got around to reading and that is tha catcher in the rye. It was very entertaining i didnt mind reading it at all but i realized in reading it and myslelf in the book of course i wouldnt do anything like run around new york almost get a hooker or ask a girl that i want to run away with then later drunk call her. But at th e time the girl i got the book from was a dear frined of mine first but we were so much more the thing is i needed to grow up some more. I really do the main character in the book talks about growing up and just talking about how old guys just talk about the miles per gallons of thier cars. I dont want to end up like that either i do not want to end up in a routine but it seems that is where alot of people are headed. I was heading that way i had become completely obssesed with fighting consumerism and the value of a name on some girls purse. I fell victim to the power of that i wanted a new car but i realized now that there is nothign wrong with my car so im in a fight with myself i did some things i was completely oblivious too i didnt know i wanted to fix it but i dont know how to now. I would do anything to get her back but the only thing i can do is grow up and learn. Man she was so different in all the best ways her smile her walk. then i realized like the character in the book that i overreact sometimes and act out irrationally and that what ends up hurting me the most and in that i lose things along with my composure its no fun without her around it really isnt. so in the end this book rather taught me alot and maybe it is time to do things the grown up way stop caring and get it right.